It isn’t a myth; sex workers actually DO have respect for themselves.
do you ever cook something in the microwave but it’s still really cold in the middle and you just keep eating it instead of heating it longer because life is pointless and entropy is unavoidable and the universe is filled with callous and casual destruction
Doing this as I repost.
On today’s episode…
Okay last night a little bit before I went to bed I noticed that my back was really sensitive to the touch, almost like sunburn, but since my back normally hurts (just not like this) the only thought I gave it was “What could I have done to hurt my back more?”. I recounted my whole past two days and couldn’t recall me doing anything to strain it more, especially in those spots. I was outside yesterday, so I thought that maybe I got stung by something. Either way I hoped it would be better in the morning. I didn’t really do a check to see if anywhere else hurt.
Cue this morning, I’m really tired but I have to get up to go to a family memorial service. I immediately notice that not only has the pain not gone away, but it seemed to have increased and also I was noticing it other places. Whether it had “spread” or the increase in pain made it noticeable, I don’t know.
It’s pretty much completely contained to my torso - literally starts right when my neck ends, almost like a collar. Ends mid-shoulder, and goes a tiny bit down my thigh but ends. My sides and my belly button area are the most sensitive.
It feels like terrible, terrible, sunburn. My skin is not red nor is there any sort of rash, and I don’t know how I would have gotten sunburn there anyway, but that’s the best description. No swelling anywhere or itchiness or bug bites. My skin just looks normal except it feels like hell.
When I just took a bath before, I took note that the temperature of the water didn’t bother it at all - but when I moved in the water, the physical movement of water on me was uncomfortable. And washing myself, super gently with just soapy hands, was so extremely terrible I thought I was going to cry.
Laying on my bed now on my stomach and if I don’t move at all (including breathing) I don’t notice it, but I am laying on a towel and physically laying down and having the soft terry cloth touch me was SO PAINFUL it felt like I was laying down on steel bristles.
So yeah. Really weird, really painful, skin sensitivity out of nowhere - feels like the worst sunburn ever, and I am a ginger. I know bad sunburn. No external indication anything is wrong, nor any trauma to have caused this. I was wearing a silky bathrobe before my bath and even when that rubbed up against me it felt so terrible.
Ugh, I have no idea what this is. I don’t think it is my fibromyalgia causing it (although that is probably making the pain worse) because of how it is centralized to my torso and not my extremities at all. I’ve had a really bad kink in my neck that I haven’t been able to crack or massage out, which could be completely related or 110% irrelevant.
I don’t know. I just wish for one day I could be healthy. Doesn’t my body have enough issues?